[Anhita]

Alright, Heres hoping people dont end up hating me for what I am about to say, Or what-have-you. Maybe one day I'll return. And maybe this doesn't need to be said at all. Maybe some of you might recognize some of the words I say because I honestly thought you were right on the money with some things.

I've never seen such a broken community in my life.

The things I've seen over the past few months-- Which became more apparent during this war that I honestly dont think needed to happen the way it did and still dont. Even Im guilty of occasionally getting frustrated, stressed, or what-have you. I take things pretty seriously since this was one of the few creative outlets I, and many others have.

Some folk might think Im just writing this because my friends got banned and maybe you're right. 'Cause I do have friends, And some might look at them as the Scum of the earth-- That they deserved what they got, And maybe they did. But I cant know that because of the way the transparency system even works.

But I see them as a human being same as any of you. God forbid people have friends, I guess.

Maybe some of you might think I am doing this because I got warned recently for my outbursts. And well. I admit, They weren't all appropiate. Though I certainly dont do it out of a place of hatred. Maybe frustration, yes. But honestly I dont really hate many of you, even if you dislike me for the people Im associated with.

But theres a clear sickness. Maybe Im wrong and it'll go away with the recent ban wave. Maybe Im right and we'll live in Cyslodia. An actual fictional city where people just sell eachother out to the secret police for mistakes - . And damn the person who wasn't the first on the draw, Whether they were truly guilty of some heinous crime or not.

I've made my mistakes. And some people might consider that to be friendship- I just wanted to provide cool things for the community. And some people offered their hand in helping that happen. The one time we trusted others with our work, it got run into the ground. So admittedly my trust in others has been abit low. And my stress has only gotten higher and higher.

The current system talks about how it cares about people. And maybe it does care about some people. But only the ones who really speak up. It never really takes the feelings of others into account. It breeds paranoia, and hatred. Instead of working things out, We simply seek to get rid of the stains we personally have a problem with. Even Im not innocent of this. No one really is innocent of anything. They're just the first ones to speak about others, it feels like.

I used to think alot of the people of this community was cool. Maybe one day I'll return and enjoy myself again. Doing PvP, RPing with people Im close too, Doing cool things in events, Maybe even enjoying some of the intrigue that Korvara could have provided.

Most of all I kind of wish everyone saw eachother like how I used to see them. Instead all I see is people broken and at eachothers throats.

Here's hoping we can reach a point of healing. But thats up to the community to do. I dont envy the new GMs, or even Dev, because they have alot of work to do. And sometimes that work isn't taking the most straight forward and easy road. Theres no easy answer to the problems with this community. I suppose Ban-IP or whatever your verb is for it might do it for awhile, until a new victim comes into the concious of public opinion. Personally. My vote is to be the bridge between communities-- instead of the thing that divides them.

Happy trails. And heres hoping when I return, its not all a giant ashpile of hopes and dreams. Of adventures that never were or could have been. But I dont think the next leg of my journey through the internet is here, atleast.