[lalchi]

This kind of put in a ceritude my feellings i had recently about SL2 on those days.

I'm here, just playing, enjoying the game and the characters other players set in to what the characters are.
At the same time thinking and putting effort to propose contents to the players.

But on the mid of all of that, I see tension and "paranoïa" growing among the players, not to an IC extend, but an OOC extend.

At a point where, anything that happens becomes a game of looking out for OOC purpose. Overthinking it that if it was targeted OOCly against someone or for someone. If there's favoritism or grudges. Which in the end eventually happens, but has it really been started by the one you think of ?
OOC reasoning becoming more important than the IC itself. Which is very ironic.
"No, we're not going to investigating in character why this specific thing is happenning. Instead, we're going to blame it on OOC relation."

Either it's true or not. The present tension I feel would be in game or any discord server. Makes it me feel that's what's happenning.
And seeing the screen here on the doc, kind of renforce my feeling.

At a point where, when i do something on Korvara. When I interact with my characters. When i take request for events. While still doing so, i have that sick worrying there will be a target pinned on my back from people thinking i'm doing it for an OOC reason, would be favoritism or grudges, while all i wanna do is giving out content and stories for players to play on.

And i feel sad to see that Balthie and anyone involved to the youkai statues are having that exact target pinned on them for whatever reason. Reasons I don't want to know, cause whatever it is, it doesn't makes it okay.

And I'm pretty sure, that hasn't been the first time.

P.S :
"They get threated with the same shit i'd give anyone else" is a sentence that REALLY makes me angry.

You don't do that. You just don't.
You threat Balthie and GMs with the same RESPECT you'd give anyone else. And hopefully that respect isn't low, or else i'd be worry.
The F*'s wrong with you ?